Night visions was your visions, memory, and life

A sometimes cryptic, sometimes raw, collection of stories, poetry, jokes, anecdotes and art.

Many versions existed, you deleted parts when you may have felt insecure or regretted writing them.

I kept them all. Every version. It’s all there. For you, for your book, for your dream.

Circa October 2021, a new addition was created. Day visions. Pages of memories, stories, and our life together. Created for you to not only show my appreciation and love, but to truly let you know how amazing you made my life.

You wanted me to keep writing. As you said, all that’s left is your art writings and memories.

And i will continue night visions.

Not just my account of happy memories, but like you, the written word of my darkest feelings and pain.

When my time comes and i pass this all down to my child, they will have quite the story to read.

I’ve asked mom to write down her “memoirs” as she calls them. She may not. But this was our thing.

Day visions was for you. It was about us.

For this chapter of heartbreak in my life, i may call it “visions of the sunrise” or “visions in the dark”.

We were both night owls, and my pain and sadness has of course given me many sleepless nights. But that’s when we do our best work.

Visions of the sunrise- Staying up to sunrise thinking of you and being overwhelmed with sadness and regrets. Or visions in the dark- because my light is gone, you are gone, and the path to getting my light back without you is dark and unknown.

I once told you a quote from a song i loved by a local band named life at last,

I told you:

“On a clear day you can see tomorrow”

And you replied:

On a cloudy day, if you are aware,
You need not need your eyes.
You feel it
💖